Have faith brother!
If you keep asking questions, you'll get some good answers here and you'll wind up having some awesomely sharp knives.
You first asked about professional training here on 11/03. If you don't want to keep trying I'm sure that EBay will work for you but keep at it and your veggies will fear you
If it's any consolation it took me a good month and some practice to make scary edges. - I was using too much pressure and working each side too long - throw in not keeping the stones flat and it was frustrating. Now I can hear as well as feel what stone I'm using with a blindfold on.